Zamasee

"Every area of trouble gives out a ray of hope; and the one unchangeable certainty is that nothing is certain or unchangeable." ~ John Fitzgerald Kennedy Hope, is a virtue through which mankind can achieve happiness. But it isn't finished. "Hope is the first step on the road to disappointment" He who hopes that things will go as planned, will ultimately be disappointed more than he will achieve happiness, but is that a bad thing? Hope is our duct tape, or something along those lines. He who minimizes expectations avoids disappointment. Oh well, I'm not sure. I love hope.

September, the month where most of the schools get back into action, when a million kids cry out in pain, but not me. Cramming two years in one, stressful? Yes. Rewarding? Fuck yeah! So in short, I'm taking a course on sped up elephant pregnancy, doing in 9 months what normally takes 21, and I like it, I'm motivated, and I met a girl who I like and I stopped writing ages ago and here I am again, oh well, time for a new beginning, perhaps engage in a relation once more, who knows? In short, I'm fucking back and I'm okay.

I'm failing school, just as the title indicates, I hate myself for it, I hate my ADHD, I hate my procrastination, I hate my way of life, carefree on the outside, a mental wreck on the inside, I don't want to be that way, I want to be like everybody else. Guess that isn't meant to be. I was diagnosed with ADHD ages ago, they put me on ritalin, for years it went "ok" until at one point I decided I had enough, this was on my primary school, within a week the teacher called my parents. "What's going on with Almar, I don't recognize him at all?", so back on meds I went... a couple of years ago I stopped medication again, since I'm afraid what it